| What do women want? |
[Dec. 11th, 2006|05:33 pm] |
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| | Nine Inch Nails - Just Like You Imagined | ] |
Not much has changed over the past weeks. Work is getting better again, but that can all change in a blink of an eye. I was able to see my son this past weekend. Which totally rocked. We went bowling and I was shocked to see my son bowl 2 strikes on frame 10. It was pretty amazing to see, Clark and Inger thought so too. What was not so amazing was to hear my son say a bad word for the first time. We told him mother, when she came and picked him up. She asked him where he heard that word and he said "School." Actually, he said his teacher. We were both kinda shocked. She was going to talk to his teacher today. I plan to call and see how that went. Other than that the weekend with him was fun. He totally stomped me at crazy eights. I think that he gets his crazy eight skills from my mother (love you mom). She is the master at the crazy eights.
Getting to the subject...I am interested in a girl at work and I think that she knows it (I guess I am pretty transparent?). I asked her to hang out and we are going to hang out on Friday. She has made it clear that this is not a date. Which I am totally fine with, since I really don't know her all to well. We have gone to lunch with a gang of friends from work which has been fun. But I know that things will be different when we hang out, since it will just be us. This is my issue, I have been out of the loop with this whole dating thing for a while now (yes I know hard to believe, since I am such a player .... LOL, right). I find myself overthinking relationships (for lack of a better word) and what I say when we talk. Since I want to make a good impression. I know that I need to relax and just chill, and let things happen. This is really hard for me, since I am a very persistent person and I want to know what the other person is thinking. So I tend to ask to a lot of questions and be too blunt sometimes, which is not necessarily a bad thing. But it does sometimes look like I am coming on too strong, which in this case is not my intention. I want to get to know this girl, before I ask her out on a date. I pretty much have been working on this part of my personality for my whole life. I guess when it comes down to it I need to pray about this matter and let God handle this, since he is the one that knows me best. Though any comments on "what do women want" would be helpful too. I don't think that you can have too much advise on this subject. :)
I hope that you all are having fun and doing well.
Cheers. |
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| My trip to outter space was fun |
[Nov. 27th, 2006|01:46 pm] |
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| | Hybrid - True to Form | ] |
As you can tell from the date, I have not updated this live journal in a long while. I have been pretty much been consumed with driving and taken care of some personal matters with Ben's mom. Driving is going really well. I have named my car "Betty White" she is a good little car. She gets me from point A to point B. She is getting about 25 mpg, which is really good for a 91 Tempo. So gas prices are really not killing me to bad....yet. I have stalled her a complete time. Don't really know the reason, there might be an issue where she is idling low. She sometimes smokes white too, but all the gages are normal. Everytime I try to look under the hood the smoking stops...Murphy's Law. While she smokes there is a sweet smell. I talked to some of my friends and they say it could be a anti-freeze or power-steering flood leak. The smoking does not affect her performance at all. I am keeping my eye on both of theses things. Other than that she is running good.
Working is going okay...which is good, since it is paying the bills for right now. I have still been thinking about going back to school to get a degree in teaching. But right now it has taken a back burning with all the drama in my life right now. Mainly dealing with Ben's mom. In short there has been no communication to me about his health and I come to find out that he was going to have his tube replaced on the 14th, and Ben's mom contacted me the day of the procedure, which was really not cool since I wanted to be there. To make matters worse the procedure did not go to well. The Doctors could not get the new tube back in. So they needed to schedule another procedure for Friday the 14th. I ended up have to call Children's myself to get the details about this procedure. So I was there for that procedure. Ben's mom did not email till after I found out the details for the procedure on the 14th. The procedure went very well and the doctors were able to get he new tube in place. Ben is doing great and acting normal. Though he does say that his "spy button" is sore.
I got to see him this past weekend, he was sick so we just chilled out and watched football and played some cards. I was teaching him how to play Uno. He plays pretty well for being 6, but sometimes he misses a card to play. It's pretty funny when he realizes he could have plan about 3 cards ago. We also played domino's and let me tell you the kid has skills. He totally stomped me at a game of "Mexican Train," I was kinds surprised, but then I though about it and I knew that my son would have skills. Now if I can only get him to start playing cribbage.
Let me back track a little, my Thanksgiving was low key. I like low key holidays. I choose to work and only handled about 3 calls that day, which was totally RAD. During that time work provided a turkey dinner, so I had just a little bit of turkey. Then after work I when over to my friends house and we had chicken, mashed potato's, veggies, with biscuits. It was good. Then for desert we has some tiramisu with some chocolate ice cream. I was very full after that. I then came home and went to bed. I also has to work on "Black Friday," which was good because I am a compulive spender. Since I had to work I was not able to shop. Also looking at the adds there really was nothing I wanted or needed. I still have not done my Christmas shopping, but I usually wait till the last minute.
As far as my personal life...there really is no person life. :( I continue to pray to God about this matter. I know that she is out there, but its hard to wait. I really have not gone out looking, since I don't really do the bar seen and many of my friends are in relationships or just friends. Though I was able to re-connect with a high school ex-girlfriend. We were both young and it did not work out. She found me through "myspace" also found out she is married and has been for little over a year (if I remember right). She really freaked me out in high school, because she said I was the "one". Looking back on the matter, I was pretty dumb for asking her if she thought that I was the "one". We talked about this and are both pasted it. Oh yeah, she lives in Bellevue, WA. Our plan is to meet and get some coffee. Which should be a lot of fun also at the same time could be scary since we have not see each other for 8 years. I am trying to think positivity, since there is no reason not to. Which is pretty much my way of life. I know that in the end God knows what is best for me in my life and I know he will do me no harm. Oh yeah, Happy Holidays to all...its pretty much around the corner, before you know it 2006 will be 2007. :)
Cheers. |
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| Anyone have a car they want to give me? |
[Jul. 5th, 2006|10:47 am] |
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| | The Knife - Heartbeats | ] |
On July 1st, 2006 I passed my drivers test! I am now a licensed driver in the state of Washington...so watch out :) With that said and done, I need to figure out insurance and get a car. I plan to do a lot of leg work this week/next week. Man this feels great! I can now drive legally...going to MEXICO on my own. It only took me 27 years to get my license. I guess that it better than never, right? I got a 90% on my test...all I wanted to do was pass! Granted this was my 2nd test, but I thank the Lord that I passed. Saturday was a great day. My weekend with my son went well too, we played some games, watched a couple movies, and rested. He got to feed the ducks, while I took my drivers test. We then ate some brunch with Will and Angie (Will has been helping me with my driving). Will was a big help with me getting my license. I have thanked him many time, again thank you Will. You are a great friend. On Monday I rested and did some much needed laundry. Around 7pm I went over to some friends to have dinner and play some games. It was a nice evening. Then on the 4th, I slept till noon, did more laundry. Then went to go so "Fast and the Furious Tokyo Drift," it was a great movie (in my opinion). I totally want to learn how to drift and be a underground racer car driver...but that might a pipe dream. Since its illegal and I have too much to loose, also I just got my license...but one can dream! Then I watched the fireworks from my deck. It gets crazy by my place since I live pretty close to Gasworks Park. The fireworks stopped about 12:30am and that is when I went to bed and with that my 4 day weekend ended.
Cheers. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2006|10:06 am] |
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| | AC/DC - You Shook Me All Night Long | ] |
It has been a while since my late entry...I guess the reason for that is that nothing really has happen that is LJ potential. Well, I did roll my ankle last Monday, which totally sucked. It still hurts...and this was more that a week ago. Since you are going to ask, I was not doing anything crazy. I was walking out the the bus stop to go to work and I was putting mail in my bag and low and behold I miss-stepped and rolled my ankle. I tried to continue to the bus stop, but I was in too much pain. So I took the next couple of days off from work and tended to my hurt ankle. Oh yeah, I schedule my second attempt for my drive test. I plan not to fail this time, I have been praying a lot and I know that a lot of you are praying for me too. The test is on July 1st. My good friend Will and I drove on Sunday and he thinks that I am totally ready. I aced the parallel parking and turning around the corner. We actually drove a kinda pretest and within the parking lot of the DOL, there are 4 times you need to signal...and this is with in the parking lot. So I know I am ready. Please keep the prays coming. God has been watching over me in this matter, with his will I will pass. I guess I had some things that were LJ potential after all.
Cheers. |
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| Where are you now? |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
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| |  rejected | ] |
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| | The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight | ] |
So this weekend I did nothing...which is really hard to do, since nothing is a matter of opinion. Okay let me re-state that Saturday I did nothing, but watch movies, which is becoming my favorite thing do when I have nothing to do. It was nice to do nothing, but once you get a taste of doing nothing you tend to like it. I wish I could get paid to do nothing, but this is not the world I live in. You need to work to get paid, which it how it has been since the beginning of time. Kinda make you wonder why it happened that way...more than likely it was someone who needed food and he/she did not have any or could not find any. So he/she went to someone who had food and asked then for some. The person with the food said you can have this food, but you must clean my whole cave...or something to that effect. Thus began the owner / employee relationship. I hope that you understand that this is only my opinion. I really don't know where theses thoughts are coming from, maybe it coming from me thinking about becoming my own boss doing something that I will enjoy. Then I think that sometimes when you do something that you enjoy you start not to enjoy it because it's you job. I should talk to some people that own their own business. I think that it would be cool to have people working for you and with you to create something that you enjoy, but like I said early it could become something that you start to not enjoy. Unless it was doing nothing....? That would be something a business that does nothing and you get paid to do nothing. That is a crazy concept or a retarded one.
Moving on to Sunday. Will (friend who is helping me drive) came and picked my up at 9pm, which is early when you went to be at 1am. But I knew I could handle it. Driving went really well, I should be taking my second drive test soon. I should say at least I hope I will be. Work has been most of my life, which is really not like me. After driving we got Angie (Will's wife) and we ate some breakfast. It was good...I was full. After that they dropped me off and guess what I did nothing... :) which translates to watching movies. That about wraps up my weekend...since Monday is on the horizon...and I get up at 5am to be to work my 6am. The question will be if I go to be before midnight ... hehee ... I know, I know I am crazy.
This thought just came to me...why do we get angry/jealous? The reason why I am asking this is I made a phone call on Friday to Jennifer to check up on her; also I thought that she might come down see me since Upfeast was cancelled (I knew that she would most likely say no, but I am a persistent person in nature and she did not say no when I suggested it in our conversation on Thursday). She was driving...of course I asked where she was driving. Her answer was not expected "You don't want to know." I then said, "Well, I asked so I would like to know." She then replied "I am going to Canada to get sushi with Joe and his friends." (SIDENOTE - the name has been changed, since it is not my intention to make Jennifer angry) She then said this "What do you want? Are you checking up on me? Did you have something to say?" her voice sounded like I was annoying her. So I said "Have fun getting sushi and I will talk to you later." ( I have a tendency to shut down when I get angry, which is something I am not proud of and I am working on not to shut down) From the tone of how I said this, she knew that I was angry/jealous. She more than likely thought that I was angry/jealous because she was going out with Joe and his friends. I was not angry/jealous about her going to get sushi. I was more angry at the fact that she was getting annoyed that I was calling her. It was like she didn't have time for me, but did not say that. If she would have said, "Hey can I call you tomorrow since I am driving and going to get dinner?" or something to that effect. Long story short, the conversation did not end on a good note. I thought about this conversation a lot on Saturday since I was angry at the fact that she sounded like she did not have time for my call. I have come to this conclusion...I want to be respected and I want your full attention when we are talking. This applied not just to Jennifer but also to anyone who I talk to or see. I guess this really does not apply to the question I asked, but in some ways it does. For the simple fact that we get angry/jealous when we are not respected or given someone's full attention. And with that another post ends.
Cheers. |
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[May. 30th, 2006|10:24 am] |
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| | Jimmy Eat World - Disintegration | ] |
Work is getting a little better, but what else needs to be said its still work. Overall I like my new position within Speakeasy, being a DBM (dedicated business manager). I think its not having to take inbound calls all the time, also being able to take the time to research and resolve matters that might come up. In my other role at Speakeasy, we were pressed to move on to the next call and not really given the time to research and resolve matters. Another aspect I like is that there are tons of new things to learn, which sometimes is hard. In my case I like learning! I know some of my friends or my parents might argue with this, but its fact of the matter is that I do like to learn. We only live once and when I stop learning I will be 6 feet under :)
Other things to report, my relationship with my son is a struggle. But I think that this comes with being a parent, you can't always have the good. You need to take the good with the bad, and if someone says there is no bad then they are lying. My biggest struggle is that I don't see him as much as I want to so he really does not know who I am. He is turning 6 (man am I getting old, or do they just grow up really fast?) on June 1st and I am not even invited to his party. :( I was really hurt by this, but at the same time this is his decision and I need to respect that. This world is not all about me, which you learn very fast by being a parent. I know that through God and a lot of prayers my relationship with my son will become better and better, but the struggle is a lot harder than I imaged. With that said, please keep me in your prayers.
My personal life is going well. I have been hanging out with my friends, catching up on some old movies that I have yet to see. Oh yeah I got a home theater sound system in a box (Sony). It was a present to me for my birthday and yes it was a good buy. The movies sound GREAT! I can't really test the system too loud since I live in an apartment building and I want to be nice to my neighbors. But the I did not realize how good movies sound in 5.1 surround sound. :)
One last thing, I have to admit I broke down...and got a "myspace" account. Yeah I know "I SOLD OUT" but I have to say that I am glad I did. I have reconnected with some old high school friends which is cool. I didn't realize how big "myspace" was/is and to see how many people from my high school have an account is kinda crazy (in a good way). I also meet some cool new people and some new tunes to boot. You should all check out www.myspace.com/gnarlsbarkley they are more on the hip/hop side, but good I really like their song "Crazy". One might say that I like that song because I am crazy, which I probably would agree with. I think that we are all a little crazy, but this is just one mans opinion and with that I will end this post.
Cheers. |
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| RE: RE: Your artwork RAWKS |
[May. 2nd, 2006|10:51 am] |
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| | Joshua Radin - What If You | ] |
I am turning 27 tomorrow....wow I really can't get my head around that number, even thought its just a number. Where has my life gone? I wish I knew....time flies...and it really does. My birthday kind of crept up on me this year...as a matter of fact this whole year has crept up on me. My friends and I plan to go to Krittika Thai, which has great Thai food. If you’re in the Seattle are and you like Thai food, you should definitely check it out. Then we plan to get some drinks at Mono's which is right next door (great little hole in the wall bar/bistro). So it will be a low key birthday, which is fine by me. I wish my parents and family would be here, but they all work. I get to see them the following weekend; my niece is having her 5th birthday. Other than that nothing really to report other that I will not be getting my license before my birthday, I tried to schedule the drive test on the 29th of April but it was booked till the 5th of May...man that sucked. So it might be a bite longer before I get my drive test re-scheduled. I will tell you that it will happen, and I will pass this time. :) Please keep my in your prayers about this matter, it has taken a lot out of me to get this task rolling. But it be done sooner that later. Then I have to figure out the whole car situation, but I will leave that to another entry. That about warps this entry up...a lot of random thoughts but what can I say...that is pretty much me. Cheers. |
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| Please Print.... |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|10:34 am] |
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| | BT - Knowledge of Self | ] |
Been doing a lot of thinking as of late. I know this is kinda of out of the ordinary for me. I usually talk about the things on my mind to my friends and family. In this case I have been thinking about my life and what I want to be when I grow up. Even though I'm 26 going on 27, I feel that I am still a child in life. I have been wanting to be a High School Art Teacher for a while now, but now that does sound like anything I want to do anymore? I really don't know where my life is going! I have been praying for direction for a while now, and nothing seems to be happening. I know that I need to be patient about this matter and my life direction, since God's time is not related to our time.
I kinda feel like I should be married and start a family. This seems really krazy to me, since I really have not been dating or even looking for someone to date/marry. I need to understand that I can't rush love. If you do then more than likely you are in lust no love. Which can cause problems over time. But the fact of the matter, this thought has been on my mind for a while. I think that this might be related to my relationship with Jennifer. Where I really thought that I was going to marry her, but God had/has different plans for her and me. I need to wait for God's direction and plans for my life. I know that I just can't sit at home and wait, but I need to figure out what I want to do with my life with his help. My thoughts on this are not all formulated yet. So this entry might seem a little strange and out of the ordinary...I say to that GOOD, this is LIFE deal with it.
Cheers. |
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| feel good next year |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|07:55 am] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
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| | Foot steps behind my desk | ] |
So I had a nice and relaxing Easter, I hung out with some friends after driving a bit. Then a good buddy of mine came over in the evening. It was nice to hang out and play some cribbage. This weekend my family is coming up to see me and Ben. We plan to go to the reptile museum, which should be pretty fun. Random but not to Random...
"How do you know when someone likes you?"
"Is is wrong to ask someone how they feel about you?"
"Are feelings unfair?"
Theses are some of the questions that I have been thinking about as of late. I really don't have any good answers for theses questions, and I don't think that are canned answers for them. Since they are all a matter of opinion, but they are thought provoking.
Cheers. |
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| someone who is ..... |
[Apr. 7th, 2006|12:05 am] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | Fall Out Boy - I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That... | ] |
someone who is a follower of GOD
someone who is able to speak their mind
someone who is not into drugs, excessive drinking, and smoking
someone who is not judgmental
someone who respects and trusts me and what I stand for
someone who can listen
someone who is responsible
someone who likes children and is able to care for them
someone who keeps me on my toes
someone who is funny and able to take/understand most of my jokes
someone who is good looking (in my eyes) (I know this is small, but...it counts)
someone who like some of the same things that I like
someone who is able to teach
someone who a giver (able to put someone else first)
someone who is understanding
someone who has a passion for love and life
someone who is active
someone who is able to cook
someone who is a good kisser
someone who is able to forgive and forget
someone who checks up on me when they know I am down
someone who is accepting of me and my imperfections
someone who loves me...all of ME
is she out there....will I find her??? |
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| Easier to hate than to love..... |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|10:27 am] |
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| |  rushed | ] |
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| | Susie Suh - Light on My Shoulder | ] |
So I passed my belt test, which made me feel good. I plan to get my black belt, but not to sure if I am going to stay in the Seattle area or not. Since work is still not going so well. Even with the position change, I do still not want to be at work. Of course there are good days and bad days, but the overall picture is still the same. The whole company feel is changing too, so this might be a factor. Don't get me wrong I have really enjoyed working for Speakeasy, but I have been here for 7 years (nuff said). Over the past weekend, I went bowling with some of my Bible Study group and my son. It was a fun time; we ended up going to dinner afterwards. Ben is going to be a good bowler if he continues to practice. His mother is trying to see if there is a children's league. I think that is a pretty kool idea. The rest of my weekend was good too. I took out Carrie (Bible Study member) to dinner; we ended up going to the Asteroid Cafe. She is a very hard person to shop for so this is the reason for the dinner. It was my gift to her. It felt kinda like a date, but we are just good friends. We both ended up having Tuna...it was amazing. After that she needed to go home and study her French and get ready for her trip to the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. I went home after our dinner and relaxed. It was a good weekend. So far this week has gone by pretty slow. I was sick yesterday, which is not good. I am still feeling ill, but I am back at work. Well, that about wraps this entry up. Cheers. |
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| Moonpie for the masses... |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|10:42 pm] |
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| | Howie Day - Bunnies | ] |
This week has been hard and is only Wednesday. I am dealing with it though. I have a great time at Bible Study, which was good. This was the probably the best part of my day. I am looking forward to seeing my son this weekend, since I was not able to see him last week. Kim and I swapped weekend, since he had a couple family birthdays which I was not invited to. I hope that we can go bowling. He loves to bowl which is very strange...don't know where he gets the whole bowling thing? But in any case he likes to bowl, and I enjoy bowling too. I have a belt test tomorrow so I am looking forward to that. I feel pretty confident in my techniques and my form, so I should be fine during the test. Oh yeah, I hope to take another driving test soon (the plan is to take the test before my birthday, which is May 3rd). I hope to pass this time, I guess I forgot to post that I failed my first driving test. I would have failed myself too, I did not signal or look in my blind spot. This is one of the key roles in driving. The instructor said that this is very easily corrected. My friend who is helping me with my driving says that my signaling and looking in my blind spot are fine. He thinks that I should not worry about this second drive test...but I am just a little bit. I think that its good to be a little scared, but I will save this topic for another time. I need to go to bed....getting up and 5am takes its toll on the body and the mind, which is sometimes fun but gets old after a while. Enough I am going to bed. Cheers. |
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| Um...Yeah...Can we do that Tomorrow? |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|10:44 am] |
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| | Depeche Mode - The Sinner In Me | ] |
I have been thinking about this quote a lot...
"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were." - Richard Bach
This is hard for me to swallow, since I am the type of person who wants to know why I need to "set them free"? If two people love one another, then should they not be together? I think that "grace" shed some light on this subject for me. In my Bible study, we are studying the book "What's So Amazing About Grace?" by Philip Yancey. He writes about how "grace is unfair" which really hit me hard. This made total sense to me, since when you love someone you don't expect anything in return. If you expect something, can it really be called love? I am still thinking about this quote, but the pieces are coming together....my conclusion is that grace = love and or love = grace. Okay, my head is starting to hurt, which means its a good time to end this entry. Cheers. |
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| Do we have class tonight? |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|10:38 am] |
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| | busy | ] |
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| | Peter Dundov - Sculpture 2 | ] |
There really has not been anything to write until now. This weekend my parents, sister, and niece came up to visit me and my son. The whole weekend flew by. They came up on Friday and had dinner. Then on Saturday we went to go see "Eight Below" which was a great film. Kinda makes me want to visit Antarctic, but then I remember it cold down there...like 30 below cold. If you are looking for a good movie to see, I suggest that you go see it while you can. After the movie we went to dinner at one of my favorite spots "Chilies." It was wonderful to see my whole family and just chill with them. On Sunday my son, mother, and niece went to church. It was a good sermon on "Unlikely Friends, Matthew 9:9-37" it was about how God knows what is best for you, even when you think you know what is best for you. After church my father and I when to get me groceries. Then my parents, sister, and niece needed to leave so they can get back to their homes. Ben and I took a nap after they left...and we sleep a long time. Then Ben was picked up by his Mom. I made some fajitas for dinner and watched some TV and then went to bed.
Today, I started a new position at Speakeasy. I am a DBM (Dedicated Business Manger) and it has been krazy so far....but fun at the same time. It's a nice change from being a phone monkey in support. It s a huge responsibility, but I know I can handle it...there might be a lot of stress to come, but I know with God watching over me I can push through the stress. That about wraps it up. Cheers. |
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| Time vs. Change |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|06:06 am] |
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| | Humming of computers | ] |
"They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - Andy Warhol |
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| Another Monday...is it 3pm yet? |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|06:09 am] |
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| | anxious | ] |
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| | The Spill Canvas - The Tide | ] |
This past week went fast, but it felt long. My week is pretty crazy with work, Kenpo, small group, and seeing my son. The weekends seem to be too short. I hung out with my friend Drew on Friday; he was very nice to pick me up from work. Then on a whim we drove to the movie theater near my house and say "Underworld: Evolution", which was pretty good. Then we ate some dinner at my place, and I was pretty much in bed at 10pm. I know what your thinking 10pm on a Friday? I was averaging about 3 to 4 hours of sleep during the week, so it took its toll on me. Saturday hung out with Drew again, he and I when down to Fry's Electronics to return a DVD burning that was defective. After that is was time to hang out with Bernie, a good friend which I had not seen for sometime. We were going to do dinner, but we both had late lunches and were really not hungry. So we talked and caught up on how each other was doing. He dropped me off at Clark's house and they were just sitting down to dinner. We talked for a while and then went bowling. I was reluctant to go, but I had a lot of fun. Then it was Sunday...is it me but do the weekends seem really short? I did not get up till about 11:30am, it was just enough time to watch the Steelers and the Broncos game. After the Steelers won, I cleaned my place for a bit. Then it was time for a date, yeah I know what your thinking...it's not like me to date. Also I am just getting over a long term relationship, but I think that it's time to get out and make something happen. Her name is Emily and we had a great time. She picked me up about 5:30pm and we picked up a bite at a good vegan restaurant on 45th (she is vegetarian, trying to go vegan). The conversation during dinner was good. She is an independent woman and a scrapper to boot :) After dinner we went to a movie "Tristan & Isolde," which was pretty good. There was a lot of violence, but over all it was a good movie. Then she drove me home and we said our goodbyes. After that I wound down and went to bed. It was a good short weekend. Cheers. |
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| What did you say? |
[Jan. 18th, 2006|08:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Arovane - The Storm | ] |
I was watching "One Tree Hill" (yeah I know, but I am hooked) and heard this quote :
"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."--Ida Scott Taylor
This struck a chord with me, so I posted it.
Cheers. |
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| Are you free? |
[Jan. 18th, 2006|07:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Arovane - Seaside | ] |
This weekend was fun. I got to spend it with my son Ben. He was invited to a party, so I got to take him to the party on Saturday. It was a good time. I felt out of place, since I really did not know any of the children or the parents. Also I think that a lot of the parents were shocked that I was his father. A lot of the parents know Kim and Lard and they assumed that Lard was his father. It was funny one of the parents came to me and asked if I was Ben's Uncle. In my response I was very polite and let the parent know that I was his father. Over all it was an experience and a good on to boot. This experience let me know that I still have a long way to go before I feel comfortable in those kinds of settings.
The rest of the weekend was pretty chill. Jennifer came over to drop off a poster that she bought me (I have been looking for this poster for a long while (http://www.oneposter.com/Product-recordCount-5-CID--stockid-19230.html). She was also nice enough to take me to QFC to get some groceries. After groceries shopping we made dinner and got to talk after I put Ben down for bed. It was nice to talk to her even though we are no longer together. You know that this breakup has been hard for me, but over all I am coming to terms on why it had to happen. I think that in the end this will be best for both of us. She is a wonderful person and I hope that we can remain friends, only time will tell if we truly can. That sums up my weekend.
Cheers. |
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| Question for the ages.... |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|09:59 am] |
| [ | music |
| | Nine Inch Nails - Into the Void | ] |
Can a man and a woman truly just be friends?
I have been struggling with this question for quite some time. As most of you know Jennifer and I are no longer together. She broke up with me, and her reasoning was that she was not ready to get married. I totally respect this reason, but we have been chatting on the phone and have seen one another a couple of times. My feelings for her have not changed...I guess I am having a hard time moving on with my life. These events got me thinking, can we truly remain friends, or are we both (maybe just me) hanging on to something that we both now will not work and should end our "friendship" to help us both move on with our lives? (Sidenote : I am still praying about this and I know that God will guide me in the right direction)
I thought about this more and found out that most of my friends that are girls are not going out with anyone, meaning that once they get a boyfriend/husband they will more than likely not be friends any longer. I am okay with this and accepting of this fact (you lose and gain friends all your life). I think that this would remain the same for me, when I marry the woman that God has for me. I will most likely lose all my friends that are girls (this seems kind of crazy to me, but it does happen and will happen...trust me). I know in my past relationships, when my girlfriends knew that I would be going out with another girl and she knew that we were "just friends," there was a hint of jealousy about me going out with my friend that was a girl. I know that my girlfriends meant no harm to this other girl, but its human nature to be jealous. We are emotional beings, not robots. I still don't know where I stand on this question; it will most likely take my whole life to take a stand on this question. Right now in my life I would have to answer this question with a "no." This might shock some of you reading this, but I have come to this conclusion through the events and trials in my own life.
Please feel free to post your comments/thoughts on this question for the ages.
Cheers to all. |
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